Transfer Day Round 2

We transferred our sweet little boy yesterday.  We are filled of love, hope, fears and faith. And now all we can do is wait!!!

Yesterday, was amazing!!  We were filled with so much joy and positive vibes. We were sent so many messages from people that have been following along our journey, wanting to send us good luck and positivity.  We received text messages, Facebook messages, calls and even care packages in the mail. This is what makes it all worth it.  Our little guy is so loved already and the fact that I know we have so much support and love surrounding us, makes our struggle just a little bit easier.

The actual day began with me waking up super early.  I have been experiencing some discomfort in my vaginal region, sorry that is TMI, but its part of the story, besides the 2 daily injections I have to take, I also have 5 vaginal inserts a day... so needless to say it can be very uncomfortable.  I think this time around it is so much worse as I have been on the hormones for so long and the weather is hotter and more humid... so anyway, I decided to get up and soak in the bathtub for the last time, hopefully for a very long time (Can't take any after transfer and while pregnant).  I decided to meditate in the tub, it was very relaxing and a nice moment to myself.  The affirmation that I remembered the most from my meditation was "My body is ready, just like every Mother's is",  I found myself repeating this all day long.

Next I got dressed, had a great breakfast with my husband and planned out our schedule of the day. I went to acupuncture, where to my surprise with all that was going through my head, I still fell asleep.  I came home and picked up Chris and off we went to make a baby!

Arriving at the office is always stressful.... the waiting to confirm that the Embryo thawed out is literally the hardest feeling to deal with.  Chris and I just sat holding hands without saying anything as we knew we were both scared but didn't even have the nerve to discuss it.  When we were finally called into the Doctor's office and saw our little guy in his First picture, we breathed a sigh of relief! He was perfect! No seriously, he was graded almost at Excellent, but completely perfect.  We discussed all the details of what would happen next, took my valium and then off to the waiting room again.

We were then called to back to begin getting prepared.  I was greeted by many hugs from the nurses and lots of well wishes.  I changed and Chris got dressed up in his gear.  We were brought into the room and the procedure began.

Even with the valium the pressure was unbelievable. I winced and squeezed Chris's hand. Remember how sore I am in this region and you need a full bladder for this procedure.   But it was all worth it.  Dr was able to enter my uterus easily and the Embryologist brought in our little guy and he was pushed into me. We got to see the whole thing on the screen. Watching Chris's face is something I will hold in my heart forever.

My Dr is amazing and drained my bladder for me to relieve some pressure.  Then he and the nurse fixed me up with some warm blankets, propped my hips up and left us to rest and relax for 30 minutes. We laughed, I cried a bit and kissed each other.  Remembering how much we love each other and hopeful this is our time to make a baby.  We are officially PUPO!!! We are pregnant until proven otherwise!!

Now I have 2 days of bedrest, staying warm which includes eating and drinking warm foods, relaxing, drinking crushed up pineapple core for 3 days and laughing...

Please let this little guy stick!!!

See more on our story covered by The Dkol La Femme Project over on their blog. I have to say this form of therapy has significantly helped me through my process and having the pictures in the end is a much added bonus. Please check out their nonprofit if you have a story to tell or know someone that does! https://thedkollafemmeproject.org/blog/2018/8/29/the-dkol-la-femme-project-embryo-adoption

Moving Forward!

April 30th- We met with our Dr to see how this mock cycle was going.  Where is my lining? Where are my E2 (estrogen) levels?  We were anxious to see what could this mock cycle mean for our future.

To our surprise, my lining had improved to an 8mm and my E2 levels were in the normal range but decreasing instead of increasing.  We decided to meet again next week and see what we would like to do and he said we could possibly continue on the meds and transfer in May... we had no idea this was even possible!!  So the rollercoaster continues.

May 7th- We met with the Dr again and my lining was continuing to thicken, almost 9mm, however the E2 declined again... I don't know what is happening!!! i have researched this, asked other Doctors,  Acupuncturist, and of course in all my FB groups... but no responses!  So I decided to just trust and have faith that I was on the right path and all of this had to happen for a reason. There are some things and at times many things that are not going to make sense to me, but I need to just trust my gut... so I did and Chris was feeling the same way, so we took it as a sign and agreed to come back on Friday May 11th and make our final decision to transfer the following week or cancel and stop all the hormones.

May 11th- Finally my body is making sense!!! Now my lining is at 9mm and my E2 levels increased to 2,000 which is where it normally is for most women when ready to transfer! So we thought about it, talked with our Dr and we decided we are READY!! So we scheduled our transfer for May18th.


We are very excited and of course nervous.

To all the other IVF Warriors out there that may be reading this.  Keep fighting. Trust your gut. Ask questions. And push to be treated as you deserve.  Chris and I were the ones to suggest we try the mock cycle, and I am in no way saying anything negative about or Dr., its just as I have said many times before, you know yourself and your body and you have to be willing to advocate for yourself.

I had a lot of people tell me to get 2nd opinions, and we haven't really at this point, and many may disagree with that, but I feel that I am right where I am supposed to be at this point.  It works for me, but if you are not comfortable and not happy then please get another opinion, find a way to be an advocate for yourself and if there is any way I can ever help, just ask!!

So for now.. I will begin preparing myself for our TRANSFER!!  Some self-care, acupuncture, baths, reading, eating avocados, cleaning the house (so I don't need to later) and of course meditating.